amesplaza

a night out
leads to a night in
ALONE.
boyfriend has vacated
and i am alone.
typing is hard.
my fingers are frozen
and all is lost
in a string of drinks in four hours.
the party was fun
but tomorrow is hell.
and i know i’ve lost a few brain cells
along this miserable way.
phone calls to people
i’m afraid to say three words to
screams crazy
when the people beside me are puking
in twenty three degree weather.
my muscles are tensing.
my breathing is low
and i will drink five bottles of water tomorrow.
ramen for now
toilet for later?
i’m not sure which direction i’m going in
but i know that at least i’m safe
in my dorm.
away from the rapist.
away from the cold.
away from the sweet tasting drinks i swallowed so eloquently.
i am far.
far from no one.
but far from the ones i love.
i want to make peace
with everyone,
including myself.
but i am not the one to trifle with.
i am too far from the home i built
in my heart.

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ames plaza

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