amesplaza

nights like this
make me wish i was more substantial,
make me wish i was more interesting,
more exciting,
more likeable.
i wear this make-up to make you fall in love with me-
to make you more attracted to me.
i wear these clothes to show you what i have
and make you wonder what exactly is beneathe them
so maybe, one day, you can rip them off.
but here i am,
in this lonely empty dorm room,
listening to music on my laptop
and drinking cups of coffee
to keep myself sane.
i smoked a half pack today
just waiting for something to happen
out in the coldness surrounding me;
i became numb.
it was a sort of suspension.
i wore my fake glasses.
but i’d rather take them off and stare at yours.
i’d rather be holding someone’s cold hand
than holding my own.
and i’d rather be sleeping in your bed
than on this shitty twin sized mattress.
hold me.
and touch me.
and tell me everything is all right
when it’s not.
let me cry.
make me laugh.
and sit silently with me in the dark,
fingers straying
lips moving softly against one another’s-
lightly.
let’s play these little games;
i don’t mind if you tease me.
just, please, follow through,
and be my friend.
be more than my friend.
belong to me one day.
one day….
fall in love with me.

<3

ames plaza

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